I LOVE YOU WORLD!

I'm thankful for every breathe I took today and all the people that smiled back at me!

Thank God for Friends and God and my Husband

Been feeling pretty crappy for the last 10 days. Try to analyze "am I depressed?" or "really sick." My husband says "You're sick hon" "it's Jylness!" (ew, I hate having a name that rhymes with illness)........I could do a rap right now but I'll pass.

Went to the Dr. He said my throat's red, took a z-pak but still feeling horrible. Everyday hoping today I feel better. This is where faith comes in strong, 'cause when you're sick, the world really does stop.

If I had a show to do, I'd go do it. Since I'm not working, no reason to push myself but the isolation is truly horrilble.

Thankful I have a great husband to cook for me and go to the store. Life would be so difficult without him. It's truly a blessing to have a husband who is also my best friend, and neighbor! We don't live together, never have except on trips.

We have such different life styles we know that living together will truly be challenging. Since he is also out of work, it could happen although we hope so much
he can find something to do to make a living and keep his house. He's welcome in my
little world of 10,000 sq ft. if it happens, we will make it work of course.

We've been trying to start some meet-up groups for people out of work like we are. People who had careers they loved and are now dealing with all that comes with this kind of loss. It's huge. We see people complain about their jobs on facebook and it feels awful because we can't find one. We see people all excited for the weekend, and we don't have that either. It's just no fun not having your career or a place to go to. Working gives you a sense of purpose and feeling of accomplishment, even if you don't realize it everyday. Once it's gone, you feel the magnitude of it.

I've always wanted to write a book about my life to help people. I came through so much to still be here today. Now is that time to do it. I just need to start. It's such an overwhelming thought though to sit down and write my life story in a way that someone would want to read it.

I know I need to do conversations and write a story, not just a journal. I have a year to do this in unless something else comes along in the meantime.

Yesterday 2 friends helped get me through the day. It was a rough one. Not feeling good, no job, my dad went to heaven a few weeks ago and I miss him. This too shall pass.

It is not total darkness I see, like sometimes I have, but rather hints of light in a dark tunnel. My mind is working less hard today to stay positive, its truly a one day a time affair in this unemployed life.

What to be when I grow up at 55 years young? That's the million dollar question.

Once that unfolds, life will feel more back on track for me. Maybe it's time for the book I've talked my whole life about writing.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..........."just wondering!"

that Zebra looks like a Giraffe

and why not?

The whole external world has been turned upside down by the greed of a few individuals who think money is the answer to everything.

I'm so sick of these people that all I want to do is win the lottery to give it away and make that my fulltime job.

Yes, we need money to live. Shelter, food, gas, a trip here and there.
But so many lives are at this very minute devastated by the greed of those who weaseled their way to the top of a corporate scheme and have left 17 million Americans wondering what they are going to do now to survive.

Life can be difficult enough without losing your fulltime career. The days are long, the nights are sleepless. Your mind constantly wondering what to do next.

Will I personally let the greed of those who got us in this position destroy me?
It's a struggle but I will not let them win.
Who ever thought at the prime of your life in America, you'd be left without your lifetime career that you have worked on building since you were in high school or college?

I'm going to write a book with my husband. It will be a hit. We will go on Oprah before she retires!

The money we make from our book will be used to make the world a better place. We will feed the hungry in America, we will save the animals in Africa and other places where killing them makes it the 3rd largest black market industry. We will have so much fun giving it away. We will feel full of love and happiness more than we ever dreamed possible.

The Best of Times vs The Worst of Times

It really so depends on how willing you are to let go of your fears and losses and embrace your joy in the moment. Even if it's simply looking out at this beautiful sunny day and being thankful for your eyes. You learn, through the worst of times that in itself is so much.

When your lifetime career or job has been stripped away from you
your entire world as you knew it becomes a complete 360. EVERYTHING changes. You wake up, you don't have to be anywhere. Your co-workers are no longer in your life on a daily basis. You have nothing to get dressed for and of course the obvious, no paycheck, no health insurance. No sense of purpose. It's a feeling of sheer fear and can be compared to being dropped in the middle of the world somewhere all by yourself.

It's been 11 months since my radio position was eliminated after being with the same station for nearly 16 years. It's better today than it was when it first happened, but the feeling of being not a part of anything is the hardest for me. Even though my mind knows that is not true, I have to fight with those thoughts on a daily basis.

Used to be, there would be another job waiting. Not so today.

So, how do you live in the best of times, when the worse of times has hit you personally? That my friends, is what I've been teaching myself to do day by day, minute by minute since the day the music died (for me!) I was a radio personality for 28 years and loved every minute of it. But that's not what this is about.

It's about starting over completely at 55 years old and where do I go from here?
Every sentence I write has been a song. Do you ever notice that? When I'm finished, I think I'll count the number of songs I've written myself in this blog.

I grew up loving music and it's in my brain no matter what I'm thinking. Music helped shape who I am today.

My husband just walked in. Hmmmmmmm I'm not sure that's a song yet! Powerless over the interruption.....be back later.

Changes

Yes, the autumn season is in mid-change and I'm still reeling from 2 major changes in my life. My dad passed away October 24, 2009 and my 15 1/2 year radio show was eliminated last December 8, 2009.

I miss both so much. The Garth Brooks song "Learning to Live Again" keeps running through my mind.

Like most of us, I've been through many changes in my life....but these last 2 have been the hardest to deal with.

A 15 1/2 year radio show is a huge loss. The listeners, the people I worked with, just everything about it I miss. My identity. It's true, when you lose your life's career, you lose your identity. Many of my friends are in the same boat only with different careers and they are feeling the same way. Yes, it's the human condition to feel this way. That's what makes being human so amazing. We are never alone with each other.

I always knew radio was a huge part of my happiness because I fell in love with it the minute I started. Having my shift eliminated in December still leaves an empty feeling in my heart and it won't last forever. No pain ever does.

Just like losing my father, my number one love, besides my mom. My popsie left us on October 24, 2009. Just a few weeks ago. Since I don't have children, my parents are still my main family along with my husband Brett. So, this is really hard.

Little reminders make me cry and they make me smile. Mostly I miss him just like I knew I would when this day came.

2 major losses.....I look at it as 2 major changes. Of course, I'll be OK. My dad knew how much I miss my radio job. He also didn't want me to be as sad as I was about it and to shake it off. Trust me, I have been trying. It's like losing a love. The main cure is finding something to replace it with. It always hurts a lot more until the next thing comes along and it will. It always does when it's time.

Losing my dad makes it tougher because nothing can ever take the place of him and
I wouldn't want it too. God gave me one great dad and I am so grateful for everything we went through together. We had one heck of a wild ride which always brought us closer. We got to know each other from the difficulties it took with me getting to know myself. As it did him I'm sure! He learned to say "I love you" and to hug me. 2 of the greatest gifts I'll ever know and I'm sure for him too!

No job, no dad.......so it's time to focus on all I do have and count my many other blessings. I am never alone in anything I'm feeling because I know we are all in this thing called life together.

My husband lost a dad too, for he truly loved "our" dad. He also has lost his career in engineering so we are both in areas we've never been before. Our careers have been eliminated. Mine to voice tracking his to China, Mexico and India.

We are growing closer which is wonderful to me. Statisitics show many people fall out of love and get divorced over no money, no job. No one knows how they are going to deal with change until it happens.

I know one thing, this will not break us. It's the greed over money that has gotten America into this mess......no way, will we let it destroy us. OVER MONEY? never! The devastation going on in our country right now because a few people have to have so much of it, should not give any negative power to us and those we love. They can take our jobs and houses and cars and washers and dryers and everything else of material value....let's not give them our relationship too. They don't have that kind of power unless we give it to them.

17 million other Americans out of work like we are. Yes, these are scarey times. Change always is. Especially the kind we are in right now where there are no jobs much less career jobs to be had. Let's NOT lose sight of our families. If we loved during the good times, we will love even more now.

It saddens me to see the divorce rate growing higher during these tough economic times when most of us are simply innocent victims of something that has destroyed lives since the beginning of time. GREED. I'm choosing to let love flow all over my marriage. It's very different now, way way different from when we met. Like night and day.

Even with no job and my dad just dying.... I am feeling a Holy Spirit that is connecting me to all the goodness in the world right now.

I choose to be a part of helping myself and helping others. Let those who have to take our material things have them....and let them go freely. If that's what someone needs to be happy is the little bit we have.......let them have it.

Money will never be worth more than love. Someone said to me yesterday, "if you got a million dollars right now what would you do with it?"

My answer, "give it all away!"

When I see what has happened to our great country over money.......yuck! I don't even want it anymore!

To be of service to you and make your world and mine a better more loving place is my only goal. That is the change I'm choosing to make, just like I always have.

Here is the link to my dads memorial.

http://obit.desmondfuneralhome.com/obitdisplay.html?id=718944&listing=Current

I guess it would just be best to google "Desmond and Sons Funeral Home" in Birmingham.

Go to Obituaries:

Edward Elliott Forsyth
(went to heaven on October 24, 2009)

thank you!!

Did anybody tell you today how beautiful you are?

If not, then my friend, go look in the mirror...and tell yourself!!

I'd tell you right now if we were together because I'm always thinking how beautiful you are when we are sharing.

My husband and I were walking today and passed a house for sale. On the For Sale sign was another sign that said "I'm Gorgeous Inside." He said, "honey, that's what you need to carry around!" I was like.....hmmmmmmmmmm, is that because I'm looking older? OR because I am gorgeous inside.

I laugh as I write this because I took it as a compliment today! YAY me! It wasn't all that long ago that I would have gotten all freaked about it and started to wonder "are my wrinkles showing?" "Is my lip crooked?" So many things we can pick on when it comes to our face and bodies.

Today, I felt gorgeous inside, and outside too and actually said "thanks Honey!!" "You are too" and then said "a lot of people need to wear that sign!" He even agreed!

No one can take that great feeling of love away from me unless I allow it. Sometimes I can be caught off guard though, especially from someone who I think loves me......and that hurts so bad I start to cry.

Last night at my husbands birthday party my sister in law yelled at me to "SHUT UP JYL JUST STOP THAT RIGHT NOW!" My 78 year old mother had just cooked a beautiful Italian dinner and I was helping her call everyone in to eat. Apparently, she was talking to my husband and how dare I interrupt her conversation. She yelled at me in such a tone and I just started at her...... looked at her in disbelief and wanted to cry right there. That hurt. This is someone who loves me?

She's done that before, and everytime I am stunned!

Before the night was over, I was crying. Family dynamics are what they are, but this is my brothers wife and she has said to me before, "off all the mean things I've said to you over the years, you've never yelled back or gotten mad!" I have this on video my husband took otherwise I wouldn't have remembered this.

My answer to her, "Because I love you, and I know that after you treat me that way, you feel horrible about yourself, and I always forgive you!"


They say I'm overly sensitive and to toughen up. Be like a duck. Let it roll off my back.

I stood there and said, "these are my feelings. I'm feeling sad. It's appropriate for me to cry when I'm sad. You aren't inside of me right now, so you have no right to tell me that I should not be crying or how to feel."

I left the room, went to my childhood bathroom upstairs in my parents house, and gave myself a dose of love. That works for me! I have faught for so long and hard for my own self acceptance and to be a part of this planet where everywhere I turned was told "something is wrong with me!"

LOVE......is what I put into the world the best I can everyday, to everyone I meet, including myself. It breaks my heart to hear the harsh, mean, abrasive words that people say to those they "supposedly" love, even to strangers. It ALWAYS has.

I'm just older now, and wiser, and aware of what all this means. I will never have a stone cold heart and the mean words that people so carelessly spew to others will always hurt me.

What I know, "is that when I say something that hurts you or anyone. I physically get sick, and its just NOT WORTH IT!"

I will not cause that kind of pain to myself!

Are YOU embracing this Beautiful Fall Day.......or..........

dreading it........ knowing that winter is on it's way?

So many people I ask say they "used to love fall"....but having lived in Michigan for so long, now HATE it "because they know what follows." Old Man Winter!

I hear what you're saying but COME ON!
The sun is out, the leaves are so gorgeous as they change into their fall colors, it's not even Halloween and you're already into winter?

You'll find so much more joy in life if you live it one day at a time and not one season at a time!

All of the 4 seasons signify CHANGE.
Yes change! You know it well. We all do. It comes into our lives on any day, at any given moment and sometimes in multiple moments and weeks! At least with the seasons coming 4 times a year, you pretty much know what lies ahead. So why dread the magnificence of mother nature and her changes when they are completely out of your control? Why not instead, be consciencely thankful that you have your eyes to see the changes and your skin to feel them?

Bundle up, take a walk and breathe in the fresh air. I promise, you'll feel so grateful when get out and look all around you and up at the magnificent sky. Watch a squirrel prepare for winter. They are busy and so cute as they scamper about and jump from tree to tree.

When I grew up, we had only brown squirrels. Now they are gray, brown, black and sometimes a mixture of all 3 colors. Actually, I see more black squirrels than any other color. Interesting how that happened. Just think how boring our dogs lives would be without these adorable little creatures.

It's true that lifes greatest joys come from mother nature. Not only in her magnificence, but when you think of the simpleness of her as well.

My greatest prayer is that we love her completely and let her be.
That YOU remember how blessed you are to see, hear, touch and feel everything that is around you this very moment in nature.

What would life be like without sunshine and rain, trees and flowers, little and big animals, oceans with no mammals or fish, the blue or shades of gray sky? I can't even imagine.

Life doesn't have to be as hard as we have a tendency to make it. When you step up or step back and let your life unfold as it should, like it does in nature, you'll start to find the beauty in every season........and the wonder in every moment.

You, my friend, and me, are one of natures most beautiful creations, and
when we take care of her, we are taking care of ourselves.

It's important to remember that nature isn't just what you see outside your window or feel on your skin.

It's who you are, and if you haven't already, because it's never to late, to embrace, hug, admire and love yourself and your very own "human nature."

Love is in the air!

Congratulations to the soon to be
Mr and Mrs Teresa and Matthew Kleinberg
and
Mr. and Mrs. Jessica and Raed Silmi.

I am so excited to DJ your wedding receptions this weekend.
We always have so much fun.

There is absolutely nothing better than celebrating LOVE!!



Yes, I am still DJing weddings!

(248) 282-2290

Cheers to you!

Jyl

A CHILLY FALL MORNING.......last day of September

and a season of colorful changes upon us. The trees are already looking beautiful as they prepare for winter.....and we do too!

Nature brings me the greatest joy. Animals are my heart.

Did you see the Nationial Geographic Special on "Unlikely Friends?" It was so amazing. A baby hippo befriending a 130 year old tortoise. A lioness with a baby antelope. An elephant and a dog. The orangutan and the hound dog. The kitty and the crow!! The LOVE that animals feel is so strong. They love like we love.

Love is the greatest gift. Remember to express it to everyone you meet today.

I for sure send you mine!

FINALLY.........a picture of Kimmie, the BOSSMAN we love and "yours truly"

I'm not saying we LOVE our "bossman" for brownie points either!

Tim Roberts is boss to many, and 99.5% or should I say 104.3% of us are so grateful for that!
Tim's an all around wonderful person.

I'm not saying he's perfect..(thank God he IS human!)

We feel very blessed to have a boss like Tim.....a man of substance, great character, humor, honesty, no bull :-) and no matter how busy he is (and he is busy running 4 stations) he makes time for all of us "kids!"


Kimmy took pictures today with her camera too......unfortunately most of mine came out blurry (thanks Paul) and more will be coming soon.

Fall begins tomorrow.
A new season.
Always feels like a new beginning.
Oh, how I love new beginnings...and HAPPY ENDINGS!!

Friends of mine in Guatemala.

These ladies make such amazing beaded jewelry. We are still in touch from our trip last year to Guatemala. We loved it so much we wanted to live there. But now that I think about it, I've said that about every country I've ever visited.

Home to me, could be anywhere in the world.

The full moon is beautiful tonight and earlier this evening I howled like a wild woman! I love doing that! How many of you did the same thing I wonder?

I want to wish you my Jewish Friends "Happy Rosh Hashanah" and thank Rabbi B for his wonderful message of universal love today on InnerViews.

It's late and I hope you are sleeping peacefully.

My 5 little doggies and I are hoping to do the same.

God Bless You!

love, Jyl

Another week of InnerViews and it's Friday night and tomorrow is Frankie and Hollys wedding!

We've been planning and talking about this wedding reception forever and it's FINALLY here!
Over 500 people will be celebrating the great gift of love.


Hope you have a wonderful weekend! I'm still downloading new music for Frankie and Holly's wedding so am keeping this short. However I wanted to say HI and thank you for another marvelous week on InnerViews at Psychiconair.com.

It's our 3rd week and boy, are we ever growing! Kimmie and I feel like we've known each other for years (perhaps we have!), and definately want to encourage you to write us and let us know what you would like to have included during our time together. Anything you would like to do or talk about we will make happen and works for us! It's such a special time that we get to share with you and we not only want to help you find your creative beautiful self BUT encourage YOU to share yourself and your gifts with everyone around the world! "We are listening to you!"

InnerViews is about us growing together everyday, in everyway and realizing our oneness with each other.


If there is a guest you are interested in us having on, a poem you'd like to share, a song you'd like to sing, a topic you'd like to discuss......we are a phone call away...or email us at psychiconair.com. Just PLEASE get in touch. This is your show and we are here for you and want you to share yourself with us. Be as free as you want to be to express who you are and what you want.


Open your heart....we all need to feel your love!

SO GRATEFUL to have many wonderful friends!

WHO HOOOOO!! It's official! Mr and Mrs "Forever Young"

I'm in the process of posting pictures and video of this wonderful celebration on facebook! Remember I told you I was the "go for LOVE and get married part"........Chuck tried hard for "live in sin"..........but LOVE WON and the ceremony was beautiful.

Dr.Don Carpenter was hysterical! AS ALWAYS! I love Doc.

The only sad thing my hubby and I have a DJ job tomorrow and have to work so we couldn't stay for the bonfire and fireworks. Other that that.........it was PERFECTION!

I am blessed with many amazing friends from all genres of radio! A crazy but wonderful group for sure!

Hoping you saw the harvest moon around 8:25 tonight. It was low, huge and incredibly expressive. I really did see a happy face! Even Brett did.....so that
makes it true! ;-)lol!


Have a great Sunday!
My 5 dogs all send a kiss to you!

3 weddings in 3 days and a harvest moon! Life is good!

OF LOVE!

I've been DJing Weddings since I was 19! Have loved every minute of being a part of such festive events with brides and grooms from all over the world!

Last night we were in Frankenmuth MI and had such an amazing time. My favorite song to dance to right now is the Black Eyed Peas "I Gotta Feeling"....that song absolutely makes me go crazy on the dance floor! Driving home after watching Scott and Kristy's family and friends dance and laugh on their wedding day is the best feeling in the world! It's a huge deal to me that this night be a night they never forget! It has to be perfect! We work very hard to make that happen.

Today...Linda Lee from 99.5 WYCD..my adopted sister since I have only brothers.........is celebrating her 10 year anniversary with Jeff. The 100's of guests will be voting on "to live in sin?" or "to get married?" Her co-host Chuck Edwards will be taking votes to live in sin. I have the great honor and am sure MY SIDE will win.........TO GET MARRIED!

If the decision is to get married.....DR DON CARPENTER (99.5 WYCD) will perform the wedding ceremony. This is going to be a ....A GOOD GOOD TIME....with radio friends and Lindas family who I've known for 14 years.

We have all been a family at 99.5 for just about 16 years. This will be so special and I can't wait.

I think my husband Brett, will be posting videos on you tube. He does what he wants.....this is just what I think and of course hope.

He had been the Forsyth's personal cinematographer for 13 years. Last night at the wedding I tried to get some video of him. I want you all to see the man who changed my life. PHEW! A relationship that is just perfect. They used to always be so hard! I had to get right with myself.....he had to too...and well, you know how it goes...God's time!


You have to learn from your mistakes and figure out what will make you happy. It took me a lot of relationships to figure this out! They were all worth it! ;-)!

I'd like to hear how your weekend is going. Please let us know by going to our website on pyschiconair.com!

BIG HUG!

Lot's of love to you and yours!

FRIDAY SEPT 4, 2009 INNVERVIEWS

First of all..........HAPPY HOLIDAY WEEKEND TO YOU..........I know celebrating Labor Day while having a job in todays times means so much more than if you have lost your job. I will be praying for you all. Always! I too am coming off losing a job that I had for 16 years....I know how you feel.

What I want to say right now is that:

I am overwhelmed at the love, caring and support I've been shown by Kimmie and Paul and the entire psychiconair.com staff.

Already, I am learning so much about myself and feeling a much needed healing talking place.

I knew God put me here.....I had no idea it was going to be so POWERFUL so soon!

Thank you Kimmie
Thank you Paul, Lisa, Tim and Debbie!

Thank you special guests and friends of Kimmies for sharing your wonderful gifts on Innerviews this week. YOU truly have made a huge influence in my life.

Its' so true...........it always does start with the man/woman in the mirror!

I Must fly.........literally............to Frankenmuth to DJ a wedding.

THANK YOU FOR A GREAT WEEK!
BIG HUGS!
HOWL AT THE FULL MOON...........I'll feel you!!

love,

Jyl

Here we are............our 9th day together on Pyschiconair.com

I must say, this is a wonderful place to be. Kimmie and Paul, Rev. L. Newman, Lisa J. Smith and Steve Marshall are such amazing friends already. Truly, I feel like I'm in a bubble of spiritual love!

We've crossed paths before in the hallways of WYCD, never dreaming we'd all be together on pyschic radio! God always has a plan! I have been so blessed to be an on air personality for nearly 30 years and able to do what I love. I thank God everyday....radio is my true passion.

I was with 99.5 WYCD from the very beginning. For 15 1/2 years, that was my home away from home. The listeners are in my heart forever. We had amazing times and shared many beautiful and of course, not so beautiful life experiences together. We grew together and bonded through "our" country music which is embedded in our souls and says what our words can not always say. 15 /1 years is a long time and strong friendships were made that will never be lost. Thank God for facebook.....many of us are still in touch! I love YOU all so much!!

HOWEVER: I love my new station too! I love everyone, I really do!

My new home is with the amazing lovely beautiful open intuitive fun sensitive honest OH SO TALENTED.."Kimmie Rose Zapf!" She is one of the kindest women I have ever met. We are SO excited about our show together: InnerViews! Kimmie...you have brought such light into my life and I thank you so much for being every ounce of who you are.


Paul Fradeneck is our producer and also on the air with us. Paul is so smart, a great listener, dedicated, and such a hard worker...and very handsome! I feel incredibly blessed to be a part of this amazing show.

We are growing in new directions.......We have all been brain storming and talking and working very hard on bringing you a show that will include more variety and different segments everyday. WE CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO BE A PART OF THIS EXCITING CHANGE!!

I wanted to let you know that I look so forward to getting to know YOU...each one of you....on a much deeper level, so please call our show often!

I asked God for something BIG and MEANINGFUL for my next life path.........Thank you dear God..........for answering another prayer!

Something I know YOU will always and forever do!

Jyl Forsyth and Letters from the Heart!

Welcome to my new blog with you!