Monday, April 26, 2010

have you made your "Bucket List" yet?

Since my show was eliminated on WYCD I haven't written one yet. I used to write them all the time and it always amazed me how all my dreams came true once I wrote them down.

The only reason I haven't is I've been feeling pretty stuck about what it is I even want to ask for. All of my dreams it seems have come true and I feel so grateful for that but it's time to dream some new dreams.

My career was always huge to me, and since radio has changed so much, and won't be changing back to what it used to be, that is out. So do I focus on a new career or just living my life each day and seeing where it takes me?

I'm thinking just living life each day.....although....I do want to help animals like gorillas, elephants, monkeys, whales, and all wildlife. I guess my dream job right now would be to work for National Geographic and do documentary films. Maybe I should look into that right now.
This could be number one on my new Bucket List. I need to find a new passion and sense of purpose. That isn't easy to find. But animals are #1 on the list so I say this is a place to start.

Thanks for stopping by today.
I miss talking to you on the radio. That was the perfect career for me for 30 years and I wanted to do it forever.

But life changes and we must change with it. It's definately time for me to start motivating myself to finding another sense of purpose.

I've remodeled my kitchen with a great friend, Lori Roberts. HandEChic is her nickname. She's awesome and we had an amazing month and half together working our butts off. I still need to post the kitchen pix. You will be shocked to see what it was and what it is today.
Never in a million years did I ever see myself doing a project like this. It was a great blessing.

I'm also painting my entire house with a friend named Carmen. Painting.............I've always hired it done......now I'm doing it. Its a great thing to do while I'm trying to figure out what to do next.

Then I ask myself.....as I write this........does one need to constantly be looking for the next big thing? Seems I do but often wonder if that isn't a waste of energy.

Oh well, this won't be figured out today. But I am going to google National Geographic and see where that leads. I know I'm ready for a new amazing adventure.

It's out here now.
Written and vocalized.
Let's see where it leads.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Hello World!

You sure are looking good! ;)
My watercolor teacher at the BBAA wants us to draw for 15 minutes everyday and I've decided to do the same with writing in my blog.
I've always wanted to write a book and have an art show........ taking baby steps could lead to such big things! Here's to sticking to this decision! (you'll be the first to know!)

I also joined a golf league that starts Friday morning. Something else I've always wanted to do because I love being outdoors and think the courses are so pretty. Wow, I'm doing all kinds of new things I've always wanted to do in my life right now. See how writing things down can be such a good thing? I'm feeling very grateful.

It's been 15 mos since my radio show went away and I tell ya, dealing with the loss of a career hasn't been easy. I was with the same station for nearly 16 years and honestly thought I would have been there forever.

Radio has changed so much, and I'm not even sure it's what I want to do anymore unless a show comes along that is high in personality and less music and more talk! What I loved about radio was the listeners calling and us doing our conversations together on the air AND being able to talk about all sorts of topics AND play the songs everyone wanted to hear. Actually taking your requests and being able to play them and make your day...that is what I loved doing. I loved making a difference and having a sense of community with my show. Just having 4 breaks an hour that are :20 seconds long and having to follow a strict format was so boring. Everything is automated and you just sit there with nothing to do except push a button to talk 4 times an hour. DJ's mostly shop during their shifts nowadays and pay bills! Anyone that's honest, will tell you the same thing. Or they're on facebook. You have to do something or the boredom will kill ya I swear!

I just feel so grateful that I got to do radio in the "good ole days" when DJ's were personalities and the listeners mattered. I loved this career more than anything. When I think about going back......it's the days that are no longer here that I miss. Yes, I miss radio so much........but I have to say again, the way it used to be.

I actually just now came up with an idea. A GREAT IDEA!! The people who have had their jobs the last 2 years, should lose them for 2 years, and let those who lost theirs take over. Then in 2 years switch back. And keep going that way until everyone has a career job back.

That way, people who say we don't work because we are lazy or don't want a job will see what its really like out here in the real world. How an $8.00 hour job or even 2 $8.00 an hour jobs won't pay our house and car payments and keep the life style going we had established over the last 30 years being steadily employed.

The people who report how it feels to be unemployed have no clue because they still have their jobs and you honestly can not know, like anything in life, until it happens to you.

I just wish people were able to have more compassion for others............that is what I'm really trying to say. Very insensitive things are said to those of us who have lost our life long careers and will most likely never get them back because the world has changed and our industries now function with 3/4 less people in the workplace. Those who still have their jobs complain about how overworked they are. Anyone of us, would gladly switch places. Days are very long when you aren't working.

See what happens when I write is I start out talking about the great new things I'm doing.....because I have too. I've been forced to change my life because if I don't, I'll die of lonliness and depression. It hurts to lose your career.........even though I'm doing lots of fun activites......I still miss going to work everyday and doing a career job that I love.

I am very open to Gods will and finding a new sense of purpose in my life right now. I want to work, but money is not the main goal to me, it has never been. I need to make a difference in the world with what I do and put love into the world everyday. That has always been my goal. To just work for money and not be able to spread joy and make others lives better.....would just feel empty to me.
Or I want to work with animals and make their world a safer place for them.

I know the next big thing will come along, because I've been here before and it always does. It's the downtime that makes us who we are. Keeping our joy when everything around is gone and life the way we knew it is too. So.....here's my plan:
write in my blog, sketch for 15 minutes a day, join a golf league, take an improv class and keep remodeling and fixing up my house. Keep a postive attitude and know that everything in Gods world happens for a reason that is for my learning and growth as a person. To make me more aware of how others feel and know what it's like to be on top and in the valley once again.

To help others and be open. To be a loving person at all costs, everyday.

Monday, April 5, 2010

need to make the time..........

because......
it does such great things for the soul when you share your heart with friends.

The night has gotten away, it just flew by...... the rain and thunder have stopped and there's a calm feeling everywhere. It was a lovely loud beautiful storm. Crackling and bright.

My dogs little feet, all 8 of them, are wet and we're definately going to bed.

Man oh man, this woman is tired..........what the heck am I doing up at 3am!!?!?!?!

Let's try this again tomorrow!

NEW PICTURES COMING SOON!

in the meantime, big hugs!

love you!